I'm on my final week until T is back from her vacation. It has been rather interesting, to see where these weeks off have taken me emotionally. Right now, I'm at the phase where I just want T back NOW!!! T has had her fun, now come back and pay attention to me!

I've posted before that I looked up my T on Facebook - her profile is blocked (this is a good thing), but I can see her picture. I looked her up a few days ago - she changed her pic, and it looks like it was taken while she's been on vacation, she's all tan and in the sun and all smiles. It actually made me happy to see T looking so relaxed and happy, but I also feel guilty for looking at the picture. And I don't want to tell T that I saw the picture, I feel like I crossed some sort of boundary by looking her up on Facebook.

So, 9 days til I see T. I've already thought about what I want to discuss, but then I remembered that I'm supposed to be staying in the moment and just let emotions come up, then talk about those. It's hard, though - I feel like we lost all this time, I don't want to go in and just sit there and see what comes up! I'm hoping this week flies by, and then I'll have a relaxing 3-day weekend before I see T. And then it's back to where we left off, which is digging deeper and deeper - I can't believe I'm actually looking forward to wading through all that emotional muck, but I am!