Will it change anything if she doesn't know and if I don't have confirmation from her? I think you've actually hit one of my core issues. I FEEL like it will. I feel like I have to talk to her about it. I'm going to be depressed if I don't. I don't know how to make these decisions for myself. I shouldn't have needed to ask about it here, but maybe you and kim are right. I'm better off not calling, or holding off. You see the truth whereas I don't.

Rainbow Maybe holding off even for a week might give you a different/better perspective. Or it might make the urge to call stronger. If you call, then it might be a good idea to note what it does for you. To get that acknowledgement/confirmation from her.

You've been in therapy a long time....without the phone call, where does the depression and sadness come from? And if she says someting that doesnt make it better...or gives you something else to think about and call again about.....you know all of this. You have it within you and I know there are other beautiful things in your life you can put all of that love into. With or without the phone call.

What do you think? You got some great direction/responses here.