((((((((((((((Multipixies))))))))))))))) Thank you for replying. I don't know how many older parts I have but I do know it is more than just this one, although I also think that some have grown with the body too and I don't know if they consider themselves the body's age or not. It seems as if some parts might have grown for a few years and then stopped at a certain point. I don't know what would cause that though.

T said there is a calm part of me that is able to deal with crises, not of the medical kind as well.

I am in the dark as well. I have no co consciousness at this time. But I am starting to get information from T and being more aware of myself to notice clues.

I had problems last night due to this post. I thought it was a safe post and tried to be very vague, but it caused a lot of chaos inside my head last night. So programmed to keep secrets and I spilled a big one with this post. My brain is all about hiding. I am starting to go against the thought processes by challenging the secrets thing at times. But sometimes it brings some punishing behaviors and/or inside chaos that I wonder if it's worth it. I am going to try to keep pushing forward though.