Thank you so much ((((((((((((((((((((darkpurplesecrets))))))))))))))))))

As a rule, the adults in my life apparently were far from safe, but I think I must have seen or had access to some that were safe, be it when I was in hospital or from TV. Somehow I had some kind of knowledge that not all adults were like those in my immediate life.

I kind of wish I knew some ages of parts to get a better idea of things here, but I'm too chicken. T said it will all happen when it needs to. She has a lot of information about this stuff but she doesn't really give me any of it (and I don't want it...).

It can be very scary delving into all of this and being willing to look. I often look with my fingers covering my eyes.