someone wants to cry--i feel the knot in my stomache sometimes. then i think it's not safe or time or whatever. i feel like i am sitting on pandora's box. i am afraid to let anything or anyone out. rock is safe. doesn't have to feel all the pain again. doesn't even see or remember. can let friend go and be "happy" for her new life and not miss her. i won't be lonely then.
WI