Seems to me like everyone's actually trying hard to understand your situation which is somewhat confusing. DID is confusing to begin with, but when you introduce elements of death and spirituality, it becomes even more abstruse. I don't think anyone is questioning whether you are having this experience at all, but rather what is happening.

I'm not really sure why you're so upset. Are you maybe a little confused yourself or seeking some reassurance? I'm not attacking, just asking to see if you need some help.