So very, very sorry for your loss, AceDarren. Grief is often a big part of depression - loss of loved ones, relationships, hopes, aspirations - any loss must be grieved - it's a process. Your sorrow right now is completely appropriate, but it won't last forever. In time, you will be able to revisit all of the wonderful memories you have about your grandmother and be grateful that you were priviledged to know her, to have her in your life, even if only for a little while. That's all we get to have of anyone in this life, and all that anyone gets to have of us, as well - just a little while - that's why the time we spend with others is so very precious. Allow yourself to grieve - allow yourself to go through the process - after the night, comes the dawn.