(((((((((((((((HelgaDE))))))))))))
How old are you, a teenager, young adult, adult, etc?
If you're trying to get help, hurting yourself in the same location as you did previously to get attention in order to get help is not really affective.
Do you have a therapist?
Can you talk with anyone? Would your friend be an ok person to talk to?
It's really hard to find an end to this crazyness because you're not getting through.
When you are trying to get help have you tried a mental health helpline where you can talk things out???
Please keep me posted and take care, if you want to talk just PM me and I'll listen
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