I'm severly depressed and I know it.

I scored a 56 on that depression quiz on this site to give you an example of where I am at.

I have a medical background and will be furthering that in medical school this fall so i am well aware of the difference between having a bad week and actual depression.

I don't sleep more than four hours a night and that is never uninterrupted.

I seem lately to be on the verge of crying for no reason about 50% of the time.

At work - all I want to do is go home. I hate talking to people or even having them notice me. I just wish I could be invisible.

I'm always on edge. For example - there is a girl who keeps coming by to use my stapler and it's taking all of my energy not to tell her to get the hell away from me.

I seem to be flipping back and forth between wanting to hide in the closet or screaming at everyone to go ***** themselves and leave me alone.

My goals lately have been to go the day without having to make a sound and to stay at work the entire day. I just want to go home. I can hardly keep myself from telling my boss that I don't feel good so I can leave and just crawl into bed and be silent.

I'm anxious, overwhelmed and feel like I am walking on a tightrope.

I feel lethargic. I know my speech and thought process has slowed. I am in a perpetual state of "blah".

I have trouble looking people in the eye and have lately picked up the habit of cringing or shying away from people - which is totally uncharacteristic of me - or at least of who I used to be.

I can't focus at all at work and have actually gone for days not accomplishing a shred of work. I mean - I sit and stare at a computer screen some days just opening some previously completed work and pretending I was working on it.

I'm not really sure why I am posting this. I know I need to go get help - I also know that I probably won't...