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phoenix7 · Aug 31, 2009, 04:07 AM

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Originally Posted by clk6

P7- Do you ever feel like you know it intellectually but when feelings come up being loving to myself is almost impossible?
Im not at fault and neither are you and we were hurt as children. And we were very sad children that shut down at some point. But I still feel like I am that hurt child and it takes such mental energy, effort and restraint not to act out and tell myself I DO love that hurt, crying little child who wants so so badly to be happy and have a peaceful life.

(((((P7)))))

I guess i feel that child inside - sometimes we are seperate and i feel her crying where i cannot - soomtimes i recognise that i have become thje child and am stamping my feet saying I want to be better and I want to be better now!!!!! and I want my childhood changed and I want to be loved and to know that i was lovable and not just somthing you pick up when you want to and put back in its corner when you dont.....

hmmmmm sorry - think i got into child mode lol

so the short answer is yes - my logical adult mind understand s and agrees wiht T

and my emotional mind says

no wonder im confused!