i dont know what is going on whit me today i was down this morning then i walked out to get a smoke and came back almost happy. now i am on the down again. it has never been this bad befor i have cutt the last two days and i dont want to again. will i do relly bad but i dont wont th fill the same that comes with faller. i have hid all my tools but i still know were they are. i shud throw them away but i jest cant bring my selth to do it. what shuld i do?