Hello, Berries - You say you're about to start a new volunteer job. You know, sometimes change, any kind of change, even a positive one, can trigger a fall. It's like you finally get your bearings more or less where you are at the moment, then the slightest change means you have to rebalance again. And sometimes it isn't about anything at all, it just is. I'm trying to be very careful here because I know I have had a lot more experience with this than you. Try to imagine that all of us here at PC and everyone else who cares about you has you wrapped in their arms. We can't stop the hurting, but we can hold onto you until it passes - and it will pass.