Hi Parker.

I admit - while it isnt that I don't trust people - I just don't trust them to handle my personal information -- let me explain --

I have serious issues about feeling like I let people down. I hate showing weakness or fault. A perfect example was when I was taking Microbiology in college. I had a 112% average or something ridiculous like that in the class. My professor told me he could not exempt me from the final because I would be the only one and since I did research with him - he did not want anyone thinking he was playing favorites. He did tell me that I should not worry about studying but focus on my other classes since I could get a 12 on the final and still end up with an A..

However- I could not deal with the idea of not getting a good grade. I was convinced he would think I was an idiot so of course I studied my as$ off for a test I didn't really even have to take.

It's rather ironic- but I would feel terrible telling someone about my problems because in a way - I would feel like I am letting them down too. I know- ridiculous - but its how I think...

That's a huge snare in getting help for me... Seeking help only makes me feel worse.