I'm feeling numb. I have no desire to do anything after I get home from applying to jobs not that I want to do that either (I go to the campus center to do it so I get out of the house every day). I apply for all these jobs and I don't know when or if they are going to come through at all. I need to be able to make money to pay rent and food and for treatment. But it all has to work around my class schedule. I don't know if I will ever get a job. I got rejected from one for being "too qualified". I just need a job, any job. That is the only one I heard back from. I remember last time I went through this I was so stressed out. Classes start soon so then I will have even less time to apply. I hate it when I feel depressed right before school starts. My brain feels slow and like I can't think. I don't care and I have no motivation. The beginning of the year is always the most stressful for me. I also miss my friends.