I haven't cut in over three years (yea!) but I still think about it every day. It isn't even always so much of a cohesive thought, as it is a feeling. I know that if it stays where it is right now, I wont injure, it doesn't get that bad. But I was wondering if the thoughts ever go away. I am getting a new T because I moved and wonder how much to say about it. I had a kind of understanding with my last T that I would bring it up when it became troublesome or bothersome or changed significantly in any way, but otherwise I didn't want to spend a lot of sessions talking about it as there were other things that seem more important. It is the same thing with thoughts about suicide. They are there but not bothersome. In some way it seems like they have become a habit of some sort that I can't get rid of. I try to brush them off when they come and it usually works. What is happening to me? Will they ever go away totally?