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I came to this board on Aug 10 and started the “New here, unsure and afraid” thread. Well, I’m still unsure and afraid, so I feel the need to throw this back out to everyone. Since my post on Aug. 10, a little kid has come forward, like a new pet being introduced into a family. I now have headaches and I’m feeling nauseous a lot.
Here’s the thing that is causing me to not believe: I don’t have significant loss of time. There are some very brief areas, such as getting to the end of a day at work and not knowing what the hell I did all day, but when I go back into my sent emails, my memory is jogged. There’s this fog of confusion over my daily life, and it has been there for as long as I can remember; I’ve always assumed it was a bad memory and even went to get tested once by a neurologist (all systems were fine).
On Aug 13th I posted a conversation I had with T when trying to tell her my suspicions about having DID. I vaguely remember the conversation I had with her, and while the post reminded me of it, there’s one line in there that I don’t remember saying at all. (Since then I have, finally, told her via email last week, and she wrote the most comforting/reassuring response. I needed that so bad, and now one of the parts is all over me for allowing myself to be so vulnerable. I feel so crazy and my head hurts!)
I’d like to hear from folks about their experiences with loss of time.
Peace
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