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Kris....
Alters ARE the symptoms of DID. You say you don't want the symptoms to "get worse", but if you don't work to manage the DID your system can/will most likely continue to run amuck. Just because you are not blacking out right now, does not mean that this part of the disorder is over and can't/won't come back.
I am also grateful for my alters and my system. They saved my life. Although DID/DDNOS exists on a continuum (it is kind of like a snowflake; there is a general snowflake structure and format, but not one is identical) the most important thing to remember about the alters is that in "clinical DID", meaning the scientifically understood description of the disorder, alters are fragments, or pieces of your own identity that have taken on their own more distinctive individual characteristics of their own. The scientific understanding that has been agreed upon in the mental health community states that NO ONE has one complete identity, but that people with DID/DDNOS have their identity more fragmented than someone who does not have DID/DDNOS.
I am not debating whether you have DID or not. I have not seen your test/interview results and I am not your T. But the majority of the people that experience the traditional forms of DID do not and can not control WHEN or WHERE their alters come out. DID is not like going to your closet and deciding which outfit you want to wear for the day. It is a process that exists on a more sub-conscious level that when treated appropriately can come closer to the surface and be better understood by the person experiencing it.
The goal in living and managing DID is for the system to come to realize that they are all fragmented pieces of one identity and to help them live a more cohesive and less broken up life and keep the host personality in the here and now. The goal is not to encourage further splitting or further straying from reality based thinking.
By refusing to move toward accepting the structure of the scientific hypotheses of DID, you are choosing to stay sick. If this is what you want, then you are on the right track, but if your goal is to move forward and live a more together and less broken up life then it might benefit you more by working with your T's, as opposed to against them.
DID is NOT a choice. It doesn't work that way. You don't just flip a switch and decide you want to wear the ruby slippers versus the fuzzy slippers.
(My opinion ~ I'm not asking you to agree, and I'm not asking you to like it)
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Last edited by Elysium; Sep 01, 2009 at 12:20 AM.
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