I typically don't like birthdays either. They're so anticlimactic. Happy belated if you're in another time zone. It's still Mon on Pac coast.

Maybe what I hate most about them is you realize you're another year older and how little you've accomplished that you wanted to because (I used to think it was because I was a failure or not diligent enought) of your illness that is still out of control and hence your inability to relax or to focus.

Sorry you're having a rough time.

PS, no I've not had trouble recently logging on, but I was at work much of the day today.