Sometimes I just get bored and can't think about doing anything else but SI. Right now I probably will end up SI'n...I know I shouldn't, but the cuts I already have on my legs are triggering me to make more....I both love and hate seeing those cuts....

Does anyone else have this problem? Is it the addiction....I think so. I'm addicted to the feeling it gives me in the moment...I just hate the afterwards.

I'm going to see a counselor again (new one) on Friday. But right now I don't care about improving I just want to cut.

Sorry if this trigs anyone...I hate others to be doing what I do to myself...I go home to visit my parents next weekend and I'll have to hide this the whole time...