well i finely got up the nerve to tell my g-mom who rised me that i sh and have been doing it in one form or anouther for as long as i can rember. well i cand of screwed up how i did it at first i told her i was a cutter and she went on a traid about how i shuld not kill my selth. one i could get a world in i told here that i dont sh to try to kill my selth but to dill with unwanted fillings.some how she understod that and she asked me one i started i think the anser shoked here. but i figgered i may get but in a mental warld soon is thangs go the way i fear they will. beather me tell her than some one elsh. i hope i did not stress her out by telling here i am wored about that in a way i wish i could but the cat back in the bag in anouther i am glad i can not