Thanks everyone for the meaningful advice. It just helped to write down what I was feeling and receive a different point of view. I feel so guilty for being so angry, yet I am. There is no way to get around that other than to talk with T about that. I do understand that T has a family/life blah blah so she will HAVE to take vacations. I do too. I want T to because I know how much emotional weight she has to carry. That's why i feel so awful for having these feelings. I never get angry with T or upset. I hold everything in. That's just the way I am. This is how I deal with anger and disappointment. Never the less, I won't cancel my appointment tonight. I need to be able to tell T what is happening or I might explode.
Thanks all!