Hello from me! I'm new here to PC.
Firstly, I'd like to start with my age- 15 and the fact that I'm a boy. I have been searching for many methods to clear myself from the problems but there was no right way for me so I came across this site.

I am feeling very unhappy right now and it is been so for 1 - 2 years or so. But in this moment I feel like the earth would collapse. As if there is nothing on the Earth that would make me happy and make me smile. I previously used to be a very active person with ambitions and goals. Right now I feel totally confused with myself and don't know what I should expect from life. Every day I just think about how lazy I became and think about my bad future because of this; so I begin to blame myself all the time for that. And after some time I feel no pleasure from my live, I sometimes thought about jumping from a top of a building because depression would kill me before I do. I want to talk to people and make friends but the problem is I am ashame of myself, as if I've done the worst thing on the world. But I didn't, I am 100% sure because I'm a good human. And this lack of personal contacts kills me too. Combined with no statisfaction and happiness it seems to be a magic circle that I cannot escape.

!!! Please help me, I need you because there's nothing better than others' opinion. !!!