I am so tempted to take some Zoloft that I have in my medicine cabinet. I want to feel happy again. I'm sad all the time.

I want to be social, to smile, to feel like the world is okay and I am not some outcast freak.

I have resisted before because I don't want to go manic. I remember being scared out of my mind when I was heading that way before. It's getting to the point where I don't care if I go manic. Manic would be great!

Oh mania, come and save me from my sadness....