Went to see my T yesterday. As we talked I realized that my spouse was not able to control me with his attempted manipulation. It was a first for us. We did not cry or feel like crying and we did not feel panic like we used to. It felt soo good to realize that he doesn't have any power over me anymore. I also know that I don't have to "give" him any power either.

I am worth just as much as him and God loves me no matter what anyone else may think of me.

My T and I are going to work even more intensely to help me find the freedom and healing I've been working toward for so long. I am very grateful for her help and patience. She had not done a client with SRA issues before and said that she has learned along with me through these years we've been working together. She is one of my few heroes in life.