I just got back from therapy. I kept telling myself this is the time for you to truly open up. I went in there so nervous, i felt like i was about to pass out. And of course i blank out when i get in there. i at least got out that i was stressed over a few things. but i just am not satisfied. i want to open up to her but i dont know how. my mind is like a blank slate when i walk in there.

i know people have told me to write down what im thinking and hand it to her during the session but i cant even get myself to do that. im scared of something but i dont know what. its making me crazzzyyy i want everything lifted off my chest. im sick of drowning in my problems and not letting them out.

i want to feel good walking out that door from therapy and feel accomplished. ive been going since last january, and i have not felt that way once. im wasting the time away. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH help