I can see what you mean by that, however, everybodies mind is different and everybody is influanced in a different way to different events due to their own personal psychological structure. And by that I mean that yes I know the ways to get rid of depression and how it works for most people, unfortunatly, I found myself to be a little different.

See, I am a person who wants answers, and to be more specific, i am desperate for answers, and I do not know why, therefore, I blame the mind, simply because it is the program, which set us to what psychologicaly like and dislike. And since that is one of it's functions, and I dislike "being left in the dark" with no truth, which I desire, it must be the mind that desires the answers. Sure, I may satisfy my other needs of joy as much as I can, but this one thing that is very difficult and I am only left with theories, which are who knows true or false. And by not satisfying what the mind is programed us to do, we come into depression. And depression is simply a state when the mind is telling you "I do not like the way you live your life." And ofcource it can not tell you how to change, you figure that out yourself, by analizing your own behavior.

The mind is not a one whole thing. It is divided into different groups and many are barely related to each other. Now there are theories that there is one center that gathers all the information, scores it up, and presents the outcome, such as emotion, or mood and so on. And by stating this I mean to say that I do not see things only in black and white catagories, it is only for this subject that is nesseccery, because when talking about moods, and moods are pretty much all the events that happened around youm averaged out into whether your mind likes it or not. And whether you are happy or depressed, and ofcource there are different stage of that.

No doubt that there are many different events and emotions that effect the mood. Sad is not nesseccerly negative, but it could be. Smiling does not always represent happiness and so on. It is simply the out come, which is your mood, that is what's black and white.

Now, a lot of what you say is true, but when you say positive thinking, I hope that you did not apply that thinking all by itself ever helped a situation like this. By positive thinking, I believe you meant of thought such as, what can I do to get what the mind desires to prevent this depression. And if I know i can not get that, I would have to spend maybe more time to get something that I desire less, and live with that.

That theory might have worked a couple decades ago, however, there is a lot of stress involved in todays society, and spending more time entertaining youself for some would mean to lower their work presure. And that creates a problem. My mind tells me that I must do well in school, it also tells that I do not enjoy school a lot, but I can handle it by itself. Now it also tells me to become not only more intellegent but also wiser. So I keep wondering about stuff and thinking through it. And it turns out that that is not enough for it. It wants the answers not just the theories, because I know I would be happier if I could somehow prove ny theories, and because I can't, it creates a lot of stress. And there is also the stress of school. As a result I often go bonkers and go into depression.

And to get away from that state I must do what I want and since i can't hit the big entertainer (the true answers) I go for the smaller ones that take more time like tv, movies, and so on. And because I want to do well in school, I have a real problem managing my time. I simply do not get enough time off. I am just thankful it is summer.

Depression is caused by mental/emotional stress. And since i can see how it is very hard for me to manage it, I wish very often that my mind could handle stress much better, if I could be a "work-aholic" and enjoy school stress, not just the results of my work, but the work itself. And this is one thing that is different about me than most people is that for some reason I so desperate to get the answers, and since I can't I become depressed.

My only solution so far is to simply try not to think a lot about it, but for me it definatly is much harded than it seems. I like to think of myself as a person who knows what he wants in life and how to get it. well, that statement is true for most of me, except that one little thing, I know I want it, but I can't get it.