Oh Beep it sounds tough. Waiting and wondering is the worst part. Maybe you will get lucky because it sounds for the time being you are very necessary to them and if you can stay on till the end of the year maybe something will come up either for the company or you.

It may be old fashioned for a man to be the provider but I also think it is very respectable for you to feel that way. In today's society most need a two family income to make it and it's good that you accept your role in that. At the same time don't be too hard on yourself if you lose your job or don't get work right away again. Your family doesn't love you because you bring home a check and I have no doubt as a family you will be able to get thru whatever comes up.

You are not worthless, useless or a waste of space. You are someone who may be facing a big dissapointment and a challenge to find a new way to provide. I have every faith in you that you will not fail and you will not give up.

Sending everything I got your way and wishing the best for you and your family.
BIG GIGANTIC HUMONGOUS HUGE hugs for you my friend.
Heidu

The highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but what they become by it.
John Ruskin