Im trying so hard not to spend money, so very hard. i feel really bad after i buy something rediculas. Your not telling me anyting new. I know that people are struggling to buy grosceries. I know that when you die you cant take anything with you. I know. Im trying to quit smoking for the fourth time so i can actually save money, which i'll compusivly go out and spend. i cant controll this. my brain doesnt tick like yours does. it doesnt say "save the money for when you need it." it says "spend the money you dont need it" when i buy something i just pick something out i dont even look at what im buying. i just buy it. half the time i dont even know what i bought. im trying so hard to do this, to save money. but to my thinking its like why do i need it. but deep down i know i need it. i have to pay everyone i owe. I cant live like this. Im not being self centered. This is serious. Im going to become more homeless than a homeless person. I seriously dont know what i can do for my self. i dont know how i can fix it. this shouldnt happen now. not at this point in time. im not good with fixing things like this.

and dont talk to me like its my problem and i shouldnt do this because of the economy, and oh no its all wrong what im doing.

im trying to get better. i am. it comes with issues. and im just asking if anyone else struggles with it.

im not here to say ha im more rich than u are, or ha i have more money than u,

i dont! Im in debt, im screwed. so please dont talk stuff like that.