I don't know what a thread is, so i don't know if i should be posting here are not. I am feeling very down since i served my husband with the order of protection. My boys miss him terriably. i know he was not good for us but still i feel bad that i kicked him out of our house. i got a letter in the mail today that our house is getting foreclosed on. my husband was not keeping up on payments. i am so angry with myself for trusting him when i said i would never trust anyone again. but he promised me he would never hurt me and he knew how badly i had been hurt in the past. i have had trouble with SI. and i am scared to tell my therapist because i don't want him to think i am sucidal because i am not. i don't want to die. i hope this makes some sense. i don't know what to do about the house, or letting my husband move back in like he and the kids want. i hate being the bad guy but i want them to be safe but not hate me.