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Well, the house won't do you any good if they foreclose on it. And you might still have to pay for it and not have it. If he really loves you, tell him to catch up on the house payments and get it our of foreclosure. So that might be a moot issue, anyway.

Don't let the children make your adult decisions for you. Children don't do that well.
You had good reason to do what you did in the first place. What has you doubting your thinking, except the rantings of the one who is to blame? Why would you listen to him now? Because he is playing on your sense of guilt? Stay strong. Counseling is a must. Ask your T is he has any opinions about SI, and see if he understands the difference between SI and suicidal wishes. TC