Why do can't I just get over what has happened to me? Why can't I stop hurting myself, to feel pain instead of numbness. I want to stop hurting myself. It is happening more and more frequentlly. I can't seem to slow down. I am so angry that i am a bad wife and a bad mother and a bad sister and a bad daughter. I try so hard to do the right thing but always end up with people yelling or hitting me. I am sad and hurting.