((((Crystalrose))))

Try to think of who you are punishing by not making this phone call. Maybe your T was simply distracted, forgot or is waiting to see if you will take the initiative to phone her yourself. More than likely it has nothing to do with her "not wanting to see you". This is your therapy and at some point you need to take charge of it. I understand that you are having doubts and likely feel a bit lost and confused right now...but that is exactly what your therapist is for...helping you work through these feelings. I hope you make the phone call. Try listening to what your needs are telling you.