Thank you for the link. Well today i feel a bit better, Thinking more logically, working my way out of the maze. One of my friends has left me for good tonight. I am saddened by that. But there is nothing i can do. I am still quite tearful and upset and hurt. But in front of everyone at work and home i still appear cheerful and fine and even joke. But inside i am crying. Hope that makes sense. Why are people so judgemental?