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Dear justalittleparanoid:
I want to confess to you that spending problems and creating debt has all but ruined my life. It has only been in the past three years that I have been able to own up to how much damage it has done. It was worse in the manic stages I didn't know I was having when my bipolar was yet undiagnosed. I felt so ashamed of it. I didn't understand the impulses.
The worse thing is, once I was diagnosed bipolar, and learned that the spending was part of it, by that time over spending was such a habit with me that I found it hard to quit. And I had the means to support the habit!!!
It was only in the last year, when I realized that my husband is going to retire within the next six months that I got real and owned up to my habits and decided it was now or never and I had to change. It has been one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. We have an enormous abount of debt. More than I am comfortable admitting. But, there will be money coming in in the future that will be enough to pay it off. I just keep thinking how much better it would be if I hadn't gone wild in the first place.
This is my one Achilles heel, my one glaring fault. But with the help of my Higher Power, I am tackling it a day at a time.
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 Vickie
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