Do not let this kind of thing take control of you. Get some self esteem so you don't need to have his reassurance. I'm only speaking for myself--but I've been w/my husband (boyfriend since 15; he was 16) & sex was a big part of our relationship. So now YEARS later (I'm 55) I had to go on meds for bipolar & gained weight & he told me he no longer found me sexually attractive (3 yrs. ago) & I overdosed. Ended up in the ER & needing major therapy & treatment for 2 1/2 yrs. before I could not cry all the time. Of course, he didn't know I would react that way, but I am overly sensitive due to lots of other stuff (mother's suicide & father telling me she killed herself because she was losing her looks--when she was suffering from a severe case of bipolar).

But I had those ideas in my head...

Now he has an "epiphany" & says he was wrong & wants to start a sexual relationship again. I feel like he destroyed that part of my life. I don't know...

If he had given me unconditional love 3 yrs. before & I didn't have the OD--but now? How can I recover? I've finally come to terms w/the loss of that part of my life & his disgust w/me...

I'm not suicidal anymore & then he throws this at me! Like--why couldn't he have this epiphany before he killed my soul?