So the last month has basically failed all over the place.My child went into foster care, my cousin and birth coach died suddenly at fifty three, my disabilities have ramped up, Im extremely depressed and anxious, not sleeping..you name it.
Anyways, ive been doing....NOTHING. But whatever the hell I want to at that moment.Mostly thats been staying online with friends, relaxing in my home, sleeping way too much and reading great novels to escape.

I NEED this right now. I need this downtime before i start making changes. However, noone in the my family seems to understand this. Ive been this way for a couple of weeks, and i plan to stay that way until i feel personally ready to attack the underlying issues. Some would say im not doing anyhing but really after the last five years i need this "vacation" from reality, and its saving me from ..er, well, "negative" thoughts, self harm, relapsing on drugs, generally alot of bad things.

How can i explain this in a way to my family that willmake them understand? Im extremely sick right now, both physically and mentally, and I cannot do much. My mother called me stupid today...I was proud of myself, I stood up from my chair and said "YOU...do NOT. Have the right to do that in my house. YOU dont GET TO DO THAT. You can show yourself the door." That has been what ive been doing with anyone who treats me poorly, sorry, get out of my life,not interested in more stress. Although they have to really do something hurtful of course.

Thoughts guys?