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justfloating
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Default Sep 01, 2009 at 11:26 PM
 
Six shifts left at the job I hate. SIX!!!! Say it with me... SIIIIIIIIX!!!!

I am never going back to that place after this. Never ever ever EVER. I still have two weeks after I'm done work before I go back to school, but I lied and said I was leaving earlier than that just so I wouldn't have to work the rest of the summer. It's sort of sad because my job is not particularly challenging, but I just need it all to be over SO badly that it'll be worth it.

I am trying to take my life back from my depression, one thing at a time. First step, get out of the job that makes me miserable. The next step will be to get back into the academics that I let slide last year due to my depression. After that I want to work on padding my resume and getting started on grad school applications. Somewhere in there, I want to start getting my act together concerning my writing, and I want to work on what has been, up 'till now, an almost paralysing shyness. I'm SO looking forward to being out of the job, but that's really the easy stuff. I'm excited but I'm also scared about the rest of it. I don't know how I'm going to manage this year. All I know is that it HAS to be different from last year. I can't go back to the way I was. I can't let the depression have me again. I know I need to make some serious changes in my life, I just wish it wasn't so terrifying!

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