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Originally Posted by mikec232
Thanks everyone,
We are fighting a lot. Her behaviors have changed and she does not feel that she has to explain anything to me. We are fighting a lot, and I feel that it is time to move on. I don't want to, but there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I know that this is something that I may regret, but it is so hard to be with her. I'm beginning to hate her, and I don't want to. I actually love her (I know it sounds confusing), but I no longer feel it back. I'm just being hurt more and more everyday.
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The depression is winning, unfortunately. I know in my own relationship with my ex I would intentionally try to drive him away to prove that he didn't love me and I wasn't worthy of love, all the depression just telling me I'm a loser and not worthy of love or capable of loving. The depression made me believe life was not worth living, that I didn't deserve anything and it was only by the grace of God that I was able to get help before everybody abandoned me.
I would recommend for you, taking a step back but staying in contact so when she is ready to get help you are there and can be a support. Explain that her behavior right now is unacceptable and you can no longer live with her unless she is ready to get help. let her know that you love her deeply and will be by her side the moment that she does decide to get help if she wants you there.
Hope this helps, just my humble opinion, nothing more,
Hugs,
Tara