got brackfast better now with food. still a bit down and draned but last nights cut still herts soi dont fill the need to cut. tryed to throw away my tools again. did not turn out so wll ended up bringing them back. ended up cleaning + raping them up and returning them to there hiding place. why the flouck cant i do it. i am jest so week had to tell some one about last night one they called. made me sick to my stomick.