((((Bowzz))))) what i get from your post is that you are feeling very overwhelmed and it is good that you can see that you need a re-centering time, a time to re-evaluate your life course and a time to start fresh again.... thank goodness we are given those opportunities (its happened to me several times) .. get grounded in what you know to be good and true and strike a course to achieving your plans... there is help along the way to make it easier but you will have to do most of the work on your own... you and jer are worth it... sending hope