Hi Perzephone

Thanks for the hug.

I'm sorry you can understand what I mean - because it means you are feeling how I do and that bites - so hugs back to you and the rest of the folks here.

Today my challenge is to avoid everyone at work.

My last day here will be the 19th and then I have a week off before I leave for med school. I told my boss who passed that tidbit on to everyone.

I know she didn't mean any harm by that- but now everyone is coming up to me and asking all sorts of questions - where I am going etc...

I HATE that. I just narrowly escaped that conversation when I went to get a cup of coffee- and only by saying my mother was on the phone - which - if you think about it- makes as much sense as waterproof toilet paper. But I couldn't stand the idea of having to explain my personal decision to people.

I think that characteristic of mine is probably one of the HUGE factors in why I am so depressed. I fear telling people things because I worry what they will think - that they might think I am a failure somehow or that I let them down... So I just avoid telling people things about me..

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