I feel way down again....I hate it....I was trying hard to stay up and inspired....but it looks like it's difficult to be okay while I'm lonely....
My family were here that's why I felt okay....now, that they left, I'm lonely again....
I can't understand....Is this too much to ask to have somebody in my life?
why doesn't that happen to me? what is wrong with me?
I can't focus on my job and I'm terrified....I really need to do good at my job and keep it....I can't afford being out of job....
People come to my life, but I push them away....I don't know what is wrong with me....or probably, they are not meant to stay in my life for long time...
some stay longer....then I moved...I moved from country to country, then I lost all those beautiful, compassionate friends that I made....I miss them....
hope I can make more quality friends again....hope....
Marjan