Ogette-

Thanks for the support - I'm sorry anyone has to feel like this.

it's nice to find a place like this forum though. When I posted intially - I was a little worried about the reaction I would receive. I kept thinking - maybe I sound to harsh - or cold - or stupid - or (insert any adjective along those lines).

It's especially nice for someone like me who cant talk about this sort of things with friends or family. it isnt that I dont have friends who would support me - I just couldnt stand the idea of thinking I let them down somehow... I'm sure soon I will be worrying I let you all down too... But for now- I can't express well enough what a huge difference this is making.

I'm sure we have all have heard how the best way to really understand something is to teach it - hopefully that logic applies here and that the best way to overcome our own depression is to help someone else over come theirs-

if this is true- you all are certainly on the way to feeling better - I know I am. You all rock.