Made it through the weekend straight and sober, Phew!!! Moved mom she has alzhiemers. It was the first time I had experianced her not knowing who I am and her being very angry at me for trying to help her. There are just no words to even express how that felt. Yep, there's that word feel (ings). I wanted so bad to escape into never never land where no part of me could feel the pain and sadness. Others were drinking and oh how I wanted to so bad. I am glad my daughter was there to jump in when I froze.
I don't remember who it was here that told me to say, I wont drink today but I will tomorrow. At first I thaught, "If I use that I'd surely drink tomorrow." Well it has deffinately helped. Thank you!