Forgive me if I just reply to all in one post - I appreciate you all individually!

Thanks for reminding me that it won't be like this forever and that in time I will learn how to command the respect that is part of a marriage. I woke early for the first time since I changed bedrooms and he was up sitting in his chair. So, I know that things are churning around inside of him too. In spite of his bad behavior lately I feel sorry for him. He has become caught in a trap of perfectionism and workaholism. I am ruining his "reputation" by being such a screw-up - his opinion not mine. I am fully aware of how difficult marriage to me has been, so many disapointments and deprivation of a close intimate relationship. He has suffered here too. BUT, that doesn't excuse his bad behavior or attempts to manipulate selfishly. So, I'm gonna pray for him and do my best to stand tough when he pulls his next tantrum.

You ALL have shared from your hearts, thanks so much!!!!!!!!!