[. I was feeling really angry and said/did a couple of inappropriate things to my friends that hurt them, although that was not my intention. I guess what I'm trying to enunciate is that I'm feeling pretty bad, and almost like I can't control myself, but at the same time I can. It's hard because I feel like I am right on the border-- I'm not out of control enough to need treatment but at the same time I know I'm a little bit different from everyone else. I'm trying to come to terms with and I'm feeling a bit lost and I really don't know what to do. Can anyone relate? Thoughts? I don't know anyone else who is bipolar and it would be nice to hear from people who sometimes do things they can't control and would like to fix it, too

vanessa

I can relate alot. say and do all sorts of things to piss people off, it's like i'm watching myself do it. usually feel horrible afterwards. didn't understand why for years until dxs bipolar. the thing about not being out of control enough is your still out of control, get help before you have no choice. i nearly lost everything.