Thanks pegasus and hunny. I don't know why I put so much weight on a dx. I'm just tired of doctors saying "you're depressed, you're anxious, etc." They'd be depressed if their family was torn apart too! And I've never felt depressed a day in my life until they told me I was lol! I take comfort in having a name for everything. I'm still scared of the drive and don't feel prepared enough. All I can do is dive in and do it. I don't like that. Okay I'm leaving now. Wish me luck! I'll let you know how it goes <3