i think something is wron with me. so much so i've just sent a lon message to my sw even though i a) dont see him now and b) it's out of hours.

i feel agitated, antsy almost. cant sit still. legs have this urge to move. head is racing. just full of stuff but i have no idea what it is. Kind of spaced out too. had trouble sleeping last night cos head was goin round and round. half time today was struggling to sit still and concentrate. listening to like 10 conversations at once. I'm working ok but have to keep getting up and doing other things cos concentrating is just so hard.

what's going on?

I feel like i should go out for a run (I dont run) to see if i can feel tired and get rid of the excess energy.

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My problem has always been i dont want everyone to know everythign and so i've kept a lot of stuff back from my team until my sw has been there to witness or has heard from my SO what i've done.

i need to trust the new team i know but i cant.