Well, the med adjustment after my attempt does not seem to be working. I have been using the hotlines almost nightly. Talked to my therapist on the phone today. I am going inpatient tomorrow to get some help in rebuilding my life. I hope they can at least give me some strength to work on my goals. I do not know if i will have internet access or not, so if you want to reply to this post, i would do it before tomorrow. Still fighting, just need a little help is all.