Aww Vanessa. Hugs to you!! Im not bipolar but I have an uncle i believe is. So I study about it and try to educate myself. First off . Never Ever Feel ashamed! Its nothing to be ashamed of.It is a medical condition like others have other conditions. Do you have family or close friends you can talk to? Having support and acceptance is important. You need that. Also taking medication though you may feel you might not need could help stabilize your mood swings. If you ever need to talk. Im here.